I'm currently existing in an emotionally empty space. My book "Painting Life" has been out for two and a half months, so the initial marketing push is almost done. I have also completed a series of photographs and drawings. “Now”, I ask myself, “what am I going to do?”
This in-between space is the hardest part of being a "creative". A "creative" is a person whose primary focus in life is the creative process. It is the lens through which they envision every aspect of life including: the arts, business, homemaking, or creating a vision for the future.
This in-between space is painful. It’s as though all of my creative ideas have fled and what remains is what I refer to as “postpartum depression", for this feels the same as when I gave birth to my daughters. But this time it’s not driven by hormones, but by the fact that I gave birth to multiple creative ideas and I now feel empty.
I wrote about another issue that happens during this time in my post number 34: about feeling homesick for the Self. In this post I say, “If I have not been able to be creative, I feel homesick for my Self. I actually feel a physical sense of longing way down deep in the core of my gut. I feel lost.”
To read the entire post click on: http://bit.ly/2cw5vl5
I feel caught in a vicious spiral, and the only way out is for me to create. Yet I'm devoid of ideas. So, here is my solution -- to write about it as I am doing in this post.
So here it is. I'm just putting words on paper and as I do, I feel a bit better.
We can all write, which means we can all journal. For some, the idea of "journaling" sounds intimidating. So, think of it as unloading your thoughts and feelings for 15 minutes a day – not a description of what happened outside you, but what is/was happening inside. Interestingly this is also a possible first step in using creativity to heal.
For this exercise, it helps if you:
v Don't write sentences, just write words.
v Use paper or a notebook without lines.
v Try using different colors to help express the feeling.
v Wrote either in the early morning or in the evening just before bedtime.
v Limit yourself to 15 minutes.
I challenge you to try this for the next two weeks and see what happens. Then email me by going to my contact page: http://bit.ly/2i6Zocl I would love to know how this process works for you.